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Billed Hourly doesn’t write enough. Her blog is devoid. Blah blah blah.

I have a lot I want to write about, but the timing’s been off. I forget details of appointments if I don’t write them up within a few hours of the call, but I’m rarely home in time or energetic enough to squeeze into that window. Now it’s the end of the semester. I have a lot going on. With all the minors and certificate programs and crap that I decided to add to my degree to make my graduate school applications look pretty, I’m a bit swamped with final projects, research papers, and upcoming exams. Regardless, He Who Cracks the Whip wants new material. So here you go, my pet.

As for work, it’s not something I’ve been doing much of. I’ve had little patience for the neediness, and a bizarre availability. The availability will change in the next month, after I return from China. The lack of patience, not so much.

The few appointments I have done lately have been relatively enjoyable, though. One kid, a Bronx Italian who wore a crucifix the entire time, came shortly after I stripped naked and touched his cock. We spent most of his allotted time talking about his childhood, and the last few minutes before he left were spent fucking on the edge of the bed in front of the mirror ala Patrick Bateman. He never said a word during the sex, and every time I looked at him, his eyes were either unfocused or focused on his reflection. It was amusing and oddly refreshing to have a client that paid little attention to me or the details of my private life. Another man that I saw last week was older and sounded to be Russian. He was stark naked when I got to the hotel and immediately hopped into bed. He kissed me quite a bit and asked continuously if I was okay. I nodded and smiled every time except when his weight rested on my hair. Eventually he told me he wanted to make love to me. I only hear that from older clients and The Boy. I only enjoy hearing it from The Boy. Hearing it from others makes my skin crawl. It’s a symptom of my self-sabotage, carrying over into my professional life. In the midst of “making love” at the most awkward angles possible, our room service arrived. We’d discussed favorite desserts earlier. One of mine is cheesecake, so The Russian ordered a slice of cheesecake for me from the midnight menu. My cheesecake with strawberry syrup and berry compote was bigger, more attractive, and infinitely more enjoyable than my romp with the client, though I certainly appreciated the gesture.

Last Tuesday, we had an agency-wide, hooker-only meeting near our incall. Our booker lectured us on the usual: be on time for appointments, dress appropriately, clean up afterwards… I tuned it all out. These gatherings are embarrassing for me. I used to work for the restaurant we hold our meetings at. Despite having worked at a different location, I still know the majority of the staff. I’d prefer that they not hear my coworkers discussing fuck-me panties and dildos at normal volume. M’s last point of business was an upcoming meet-and-greet hosted by TER.

TER, or The Erotic Review, is a website devoted to reviews for escorts and massage girls according to region. A good review can boost business; a bad one can break your career in this industry, if the industry hasn’t already broken you. The meet-and-greet was intended for all the agencies in the area and the men who frequent them. Due to the questionable nature of this field, the location was being kept secret until the day of the event. I thought this was ridiculous, but as no one cared what my opinion was, I stayed silent and kept drinking. M kept going. We were to assemble at our incall on Monday, dressed in something form fitting and preferably a bit skanky, 45 minutes before the event’s start time. And then I found an out: one of my final exams was on the same day, and it was scheduled to begin half an hour before the hookers ‘n’ johns cocktail party. No dice. I was expected to finish my final quickly and haul my skankified ass to wherever the party was at. I drank my way through the rest of the meeting and headed home to sleep as soon as it ended.

Monday came, and there was still no word on where this event was to be held. M finally called right before two, only to tell me that she had quit the agency that morning. She claimed the owners hadn’t paid her in over a month, so she had walked out, penniless. She asked if I would be interested in joining an agency with her. I hesitated. I wasn’t happy with how she had been running the show, and I wasn’t eager to continue under her direct control. I’d rather go independent. I told her I had some ideas and I would call her later to talk, then went about the rest of my day. I [think I] failed my final spectacularly, along with the rest of my class. Despite having finally received event details from the temporary booker at the agency, I decided to forego it in favor of seeing one of my private clients, an easy-going Jewish lawyer. He’d spent a month in Nigeria on business, and we were long overdue for some quality time. Since the lawyer is actually fun to talk to and only requires a handjob to go with his foot fetish, I’m all too happy to see him. After scheduling another visit for later in the week and heading for home, I called a coworker to see how the night had gone. She dropped the bomb: M had been fired for not reporting all the appointments she booked and pocketing the fees from the unreported calls.

Another agency’s owner is now running the phones until our owners find a replacement for M. Katie’s quite pleasant. Strangely, I’ve done more calls in the last few days than I have in the last couple weeks, with the same availability I’ve had since midterm. M hasn’t called me since Monday; I assume she’s figured out that her transgressions have made the rounds. Beyond that, there’s little else going on. Finals end next week; I’m off to China the following weekend. I’d say I’ll post something before then, but even the best intentions fall by the wayside. If I do, it’ll be a pleasant surprise.

I’m hoping this post will go a little ways in explaining why I haven’t posted anything new in a few weeks.

For my first few months as a call girl, I was the go-to girl for problem clients. Weird fetishes? Done. Asks too many personal questions? I’ll just lie to him. Clingy and emotionally needy? More regulars for me! I’ve never had any desire to be with any of these men, though, within or without the confines of my job. This used to just be part of the trade-off: more clients, more money, regardless of how I felt about them personally. However, it’s been weighing on me as of late. Life as a sex worker is not very fulfilling in any way but financially. I have a mental disconnect to the situation. I’m not attracted to my clients, so I cannot truly enjoy my time with them. I don’t want to hear about their families, their jobs, their lives. I don’t want them to go down on me. I don’t want their dicks or mouths anywhere near my mouth. I just want to be left alone now.

The worst is when they try to “please” me. I’m a very visual person. In my personal sex life, when I had one, I only ever had sex with guys that I was extremely physically attracted to. Most of them were dumb as posts, but that wasn’t the point. I wanted to fuck, not talk. I wanted fireworks. Spontaneous volcanic eruptions. Angels singing. Out of body experiences. Something. And by God, if that boy wasn’t a stud, I wasn’t getting off. Not only did he have to have all the right moves [or at least be able to take instructions], but he had to look the part, too. When I took up hooking, I remedied this enormous deficit of good looks by lying back and picturing past sex partners or, more frequently, Charlie Hunnam. This visualization takes a great amount of effort, because there’s always a little voice in the back of my head reminding me that the guy between my legs more likely resembles, oh I don’t know, Gary Busey than Charlie Hunnam. And once it starts getting louder, I have to start my mental movie all over again. It takes forever. I hate it.

Now the situation is even worse, though. There is actually someone I want to be with. I have no idea yet whether or not he’s worth a damn in bed, but until I find out, I can imagine that he’s every amazing sexual encounter rolled into one. I can imagine the fireworks, the volcanoes, the angels, all of it. And I do. And it makes work the greatest chore I’ve ever done, especially with the ones that think they’re pleasing me. I work harder to orgasm than I’ve ever had to in order to make a guy cum.  I’ve even begun faking it, because some of them just won’t give up. Others, I’ve just told not to try, I’m not in the mood. They get upset with me. I want to roll my eyes.

A few nights ago, I saw one of my needy, needs-to-please regulars. He’s a bit of a voyeur, always asking about my encounters with other clients. Normally, I like him. He has a tattoo running down his left side, from his arm to his shoulder, wrapping around and down to his ribs and hip. Ink fascinates me. I love checking out good artwork. Besides which, Scott’s a sweet, complimentary guy. Despite this, I almost couldn’t make it through our last appointment. The need and helplessness emanating from him depressed and repulsed me. The erectile dysfunction depresses me even more.

He ran late, as most of them do. That’s the wonderful double standard of escorting – clients can run late, even miss the appointment without penalty, but escorts can be denied their appointments if they’re five minutes late because of a traffic accident. When he finally arrived, I immediately started rambling. Anything to eat away the minutes until I could go home. He listened politely and followed me back to the bedroom. I lounged on the bed and continued rambling, and when I looked up, he was already undressed. As he nodded away at my one-sided conversation, I could tell he was getting frustrated, and I eventually acquiesced to a kiss. That kiss gave way to more, and then a bit of groping. My stomach turned. I closed my eyes and tried to smile.

“Can I go down on you?”

I had prepared for this – from my understanding, baby wipe residue doesn’t taste too good. I told him as much. He didn’t care. He asked me not to wipe with baby wipes anymore, even going so far as to ask that I not clean myself at all, even after seeing other clients. My stomach turned again. I gave him a small smile and told him that whatever he wanted to do was fine. He scooted down the bed until he was between my legs, then looked up and instructed me to tell him if he could make any improvements on his oral skills. “I know you’re not very verbal during sex, but I really would appreciate if you’d tell me if I’m doing anything wrong, or if I can do anything better.” “Oh, no. Don’t worry. I’ll tell you.”

I laid back and cued up my mental movie. One of my favorite memories: my gorgeous, crazy ex settling in for drunken sex one night. A whisper of, “I’m going to make you cum over and over again until you can’t move” before he did just that. Meanwhile, Scott did his own work as admirably as he could. If I was attracted to him, I might have actually enjoyed the whole experience. A second scene popped into my head, this one from a lesbian porn film I saw a long time ago.

A quick side note here. Despite being relatively open-minded sexually, I am not a lesbian. Nor am I bisexual or straight with lesbian tendencies. I like dick, and I like it a lot. However, most straight porn is aimed towards men. There’re a lot of ten-inch cocks being rammed into whatever hole is available, and some that shouldn’t be, and I’m not at all turned on by it. Instead, I’ve turned to lesbian porn. It’s made for women. What more could I want?

The scene I recalled was, as I said, an older one and very cliché. Two blonde girls hanging out nude in a hot tub, and the situation gets steamy. It progresses until one is sitting on the hot tub deck while the other works her over with her tongue, and does so with gusto.

My final mental image is of how I imagine sex with the Boy to be. From behind, kneeling down. Face buried in my neck, biting down while I moan. One hand over my breast, the other between my legs. Nice and slow and agonizing and absolutely delicious. I focused in hard, trying to block everything else out, especially the little voice reminding me that, sadly, the man below me was not the Boy. Not even close. At last, my heart rate sped up and I came. After a few moments of my thrashing around, Scott looked up. “Did you cum yet?”

Sigh.

I nodded, and he moved up next to me and flopped down. The man with erectile dysfunction was hard. “Can we do it now, before it goes soft?” How romantic. I leaned over towards the nightstand to grab a condom, checking my phone while I did so. It was Friday night, and I was supposed to be going out for drinks with my best friend soon. I lucked out as I usually do and pulled one of my favorite flavored condoms. As soon as I slipped it on him, he started wilting. A few moments of struggling, and I told him to lay back. I went down on him until the blood rushed back, laid back down on the bedspread, and he nudged his way into me. I’ve been having problems with sex lately. It seems that my vagina is protesting all the unwanted visitors by tightening up as much as possible, making every bout of sex seem like losing my virginity all over again.

He humped and sighed and told me how good it felt. I closed my eyes, moved my hips to match his, and smiled. Not five minutes later, he was done. It was his turn to make chitchat. “I love spending time with you, more than anyone.” I smiled and laughed, hoping it came out as convivial and not at his expense. He seemed to take it as such. We both redressed, and I prattled on about my plans for the night. I let him out and ran back to the bedroom to dress in my street clothes, only to be stopped by a knock at the door. It was Scott again. He shoved another $40 into my hands, on top of the fee he’d already paid. “I really like you. I want to buy you and your friend a drink. I want you to have fun.” And with that, he scurried out the door, down the hall, and into the parking lot.

The neediness is weighing on me, breaking my heart and tugging at my soul. My revulsion is overwhelming. It’s heavy.

I forgot yesterday was my mother’s birthday. Or rather, I remembered but didn’t reconcile that fact in my head with the question of whether or not to work. Besides which, we don’t go out on her birthday because she’s afraid of the St. Patrick’s Day drunks. And so, I took an appointment in the evening.

His name is Mike, and he’s a client I’ve seen semi regularly since I first started escorting. He’s a quiet, unassuming Indian guy. Those are always the strangest ones. He was supposed to be at incall at five-thirty. By then, I’d already been there for two hours playing maid. Hookers are lazy, self entitled cunts with a knack for avoiding housekeeping, and don’t let anyone tell you differently. I’d probably be the same way, but I like having clean towels when I take a shower.

Five-thirty rolled around, and he wasn’t there. Ten minutes passed. I asked my booker if he’d gotten lost. She laughed. Everything’s funny to her for some reason. Another ten minutes went by. Finally, the knock came. I let him in and we made small talk on the way to the bedroom. In the time it took me to drop the agency’s fee in the safe and text the booker to check in, he’d stripped down to nothing. We don’t fuck around here.

I took his cue and pulled my teddy over my head. I wondered why I even bother wearing lingerie anymore, since it doesn’t seem to stay on for long. Perhaps I should just start answering the door naked and eliminate a step. I walked over to where he was standing in front of the full-length mirror against the wall. He gave me a brief kiss, then grabbed my shoulders and pushed me downward onto my knees. He directed me, his voice reduced to a hoarse whisper. “Suck Daddy’s dick, baby.” I thought, not this shit again. How is an imaginary incestuous relationship a turn-on to men? Regardless, I listened and started bobbing my head. His face contorted, almost in a wince, and he continued talking dirty to himself. “Oh, baby. That’s right. Yes, use your tongue. Suck that big dick.” I rolled my eyes, but kept going.

Finally, he yanked me up and started pawing at my chest. He pulled and twisted the barbells through my nipples until I winced. He seemed to take that as a sign of satisfaction, and the monologue began again. “Oh, yeah, let me fuck that pussy. You want me to fuck it? Let me see how wet it is.” It was as dry as the Sahara. I couldn’t let him know that, so I leapt out of his reach and grabbed a condom. I had bought one of those Durex party packs or whatever they’re called. You never know what you’ll get. I lucked out and pulled one of the flavored ones, my favorite. I unrolled it a bit and stretched it over the tip of his dick. “Suck me, baby. Keep it hard.” I went down on him again for a few seconds, just to make sure the blood was still pumping. He yanked me up again and shoved me backwards onto the bed. I piled a couple pillows and laid back, readying myself for what was sure to be another monotonous fuck.

He climbed on top of me and flailed around for a minute, trying to slide inside me. I took over and aimed him in. As soon as he was in me, he collapsed on top of me and started kissing my neck. He kept muttering instructions that I couldn’t make out. I made a general questioning noise that sounded more like a sigh than anything. He propped himself up on unsteady arms and started thrusting his hips. I closed my eyes and quickened my breathing. He sped up for a few minutes, then stopped and pulled out.

 “You have more condoms, yes?” I nodded. “Ok, pull this one off. I want you to suck my dick again.” I obediently peeled the condom off, tossed it in the trashcan by the bed, and went to work again. The second time was slightly more pleasant than the first; his dick tasted vaguely of the synthetic strawberry flavoring from the condom. I twisted my head, bobbed up and down, and swirled my tongue around as much as a could without letting him slip out of my mouth. His breathing quickened. He muttered more incoherent instructions. I kept with my routine. Out of the blue, he began asking me questions. “Do you do it in the butt?” he asked, while probing my ass. I shook my head and continued bobbing. “Do you do doubles?” I looked up for a moment and answered. “Yeah, I have. But not recently. I did several with girls that used to work here, but I haven’t worked with any of the new ones.” “They have a lot of black girls working here now, yes?” I nodded again.

“You know, my daughter does this.” I froze in shock. His dick flopped onto his thigh. “Does what? Escort?” “Yes. I can show you a picture. I have one in my phone.” “Well, sure. If you want me to see.” He slid off the bed and grabbed his phone while I checked mine. When he came back and held the phone out to me, there was a gorgeous, tiny Indian girl in various poses splayed across the screen. “She’s very pretty. What agency does she work for?” He told me. “How do you feel about what she does?” He shrugged and smirked. Creepy. No wonder he was calling himself Daddy. I looked again at the pictures and noticed her stats. “A hundred and five pounds?! She’s as small as my sister.” He perked up and asked, “How old is your sister?” I sighed. They always perk up when I mention having a sister. “Seventeen.” “Does she look like you?” I shook my head. “Not at all.” “Does she work here?” I sighed again. “No. She’s seventeen. She can’t work here.” He asked when she will be eighteen and if she’ll escort then. I told him, “She talks about it. I don’t know.” And the conversation dropped.

He asked me to put another condom on him, and I complied. No flavored latex this time. “Baby, I want you on top of me.” I rose to my knees and climbed over him, sliding him inside me. I rocked my hips slowly. I don’t like being on top, and I think it shows. I’d rather be on my hands and knees. Hell, I’d rather actually enjoy the sex. Anyway.

He started pulling at my nipples again, then tried to lift me up and down by my breasts. I leaned back and braced myself on his thighs, rocking faster. The bed banged against the wall repeatedly. The walls are thin in the apartment complex; I’m certain the upstairs neighbors could hear everything. I shut my eyes and kept going. He grunted and moaned and tried to slam my hips down faster. I can only go so fast with no lubrication. I got tired and asked for a water break. He nodded, and I rolled off of him and grabbed my water bottle off the nightstand. I took a few sips, put the cap back on, and turned back to the bed. He aimed me towards his dick again. “Make Daddy cum.” I went down nice and slow, deep throating him on every down stroke. He grabbed the back of my head and bounced my head faster, like a basketball. My nose kept slamming into his pelvic bone, cutting off my air. I choked. I could feel the water I had just drank rising up in my throat. I jerked my head up and gasped. “Honey, you’re blocking my airway,” I said with tears streaming down my cheeks.

He apologized and I went back to work. Before long, he started bouncing my head again. My neck began to cramp. I stopped him again and warned him that if he continued, I’d throw up. I know, I’m sexy. But an unconscious hooker doesn’t do [most] anyone any good. He asked, “Would it be easier if you laid back and I was on top?” I decided to give it a try. At least I could avoid the neck cramps. We changed positions, and he aimed into my mouth once again and started thrusting his hips. I figured out soon enough that my decision was a poor one.

With every thrust, my face was smashed into his pelvis and his dick hit the exact wrong spot on the back of my throat while simultaneously choking me. I gasped harder and more often. He took no notice. I could feel the water and my lunch rising back up in my throat. He continued. I shoved him off of me and coughed. He looked confused. “You’re choking me when you do that. You need to let me breathe.” He nodded and smiled, and positioned himself over me again. This time, he didn’t let up when I struggled. He just kept plunging away until I thought my moment had come. I was going to hurl on a client. I could taste it, the lentil soup I had for lunch, mixed with bile and diluted by the water I drank. It crept its way up, tickling the back of my throat. He gave one final jerk, made a choking sound, and pulled away. What I had tasted was his cum.

I rolled away before he could see how red my face was, mascara streaked under my eyes. “Would you like a towel to clean up with,” I offered. He nodded and I scrambled into the bathroom, where I cleaned myself up first. After I was done, we traded places: him in the bathroom, and me lounging on the bed, checking my email. Once he was done, he dressed. I stayed nude. “Do you work often,” he asked. “I work when I can, when I don’t have class or anything. The last couple weeks have been weird. My grandfather passed away, so I’ve worked sporadically.” He nodded quickly and made a vaguely sympathetic sound. I hopped off the bed and walked him to the door, locking it as soon as he was outside of it. 

I cleaned up the room. Towels in the hamper, condom wrappers in the trash, lights off. Sweats back on and I’m gone. As I sat in traffic trying to enter the highway to home, I logged on to chat. The boy was still on from earlier. I clicked on his name and typed as quickly as I could while watching the taillights in front of me. 

Me: Let’s play “Suffocate the Hooker.”
Boy: What hooker?
Me: Me. Duh.
Boy: Why would I want to do that?
Me: I dunno. Maybe you’re into that sort of thing. Anyway, I was talking about the client I just saw. But you of all people don’t want to hear about that.
Boy: Of course I do. 

I changed the subject, and traffic finally moved.

I got my first call the day after the photoshoot. I was less than prepared. I had just gotten home from picking my car up from the bar I’d been at the night before, and I still smelled like cigarettes and spilled beer. My phone rang. Two-thirty appointment at incall (For those of you that don’t know, an incall is a house, hotel room, or apartment paid for and maintained by the agency, or the provider if she’s independent).

This was happening kinda fast.

I drove over to the incall, punched in the gate code, and went into the building. I was confused. No one had told me how to handle the “situation.” I didn’t know how to greet clients, how to subtly ask for the fee, or how to initiate the actual session. Once again, I lucked out. Another girl was already at the apartment, and she explained the spiel to me. Invite the client in. Check his ID if he’s new. Offer him a drink. Tell him he can leave his “gift” on the counter. Count the money and drop the agency’s fee in the safe. Check in with the agency. Meet him in a bedroom. Get down to business.

Someone knocked on the door. My face went red, not from embarrassment, but from nervousness. I let the client, DS, in and asked for his ID. He’d forgotten it. Of course something would go wrong on my first appointment. I called M and she told me to let it go. Even though he was new to me, he wasn’t new to the agency.

When I got into the bedroom, DS was sitting in a chair, pants already down, shirt up to expose his chest and stomach. I hadn’t realized how awkward I would feel being with a guy I had no attraction to until just then. He took control.

“C’mere, baby girl. Get down on your knees and suck.”

I did what I was told. He told me to take my panties off and stick my ass in the air. Again, I complied. He groped my ass and poked around a little bit.

“Yeah, I think I could fit my dick in there.”

I don’t like assplay of any sort, besides spanking. My one experience with anal was less than pleasant. A piss drunk ex-boyfriend “accidentally” slipped into my ass during doggie style one pitch-black night. It was painful. I rolled into a fetal position and cried. While the jury’s still out on whether or not it truly was an accident, I’ve already decided it’s not something I want to repeat, planned or not. DS left the subject alone. About fifteen minutes in to his half hour, we heard a crash outside the bedroom. The other girl, Katie, had tripped over something.

“Ay baby, go get that other girl in here. I wanna see her tits.”

We don’t work for free. I told him as much. He said he’d pay her an extra hundred. I don’t know if he ever did. Regardless, I asked her to come in the room with us and she followed.

I got back down on my knees and went down on him again. My jaw was getting sore. I wasn’t sure if I could do this for ten hours a week, even spaced out. Katie pulled the straps of her top down, and he squeezed her tits and pinched her nipples while shoving my head down. He looked like he was trying to milk a cow. I would have laughed if my mouth weren’t full.

“She’s real good at this, isn’t she?”

Slight, bizarre ego boost. And yet, he still wasn’t coming. Just groaning and groping. I asked him if I was doing anything wrong, if he wanted me to do anything differently.

“It would take a lot more than this to get me off.”

Ouch. Ego deflated. He didn’t say it in a mean way, though. And I suppose I understand where he was coming from. I love love love sex, but I can’t get off from straight fucking. At least, I never have.

Finally, the session drew to a close. Apparently, he had been watching the clock since I couldn’t in my position. Katie and I left the room so that DS could get dressed. I let him out with a hug.

Cue the thought train: A hug? What. The. Fuck? I hug my grandparents goodbye. Lord, I hope they never find out. It would kill my poor grandma. And Grandpa’s already got one foot in the grave. At least this pays well. I can finally pay off my credit card bills. And pay next semester’s tuition. I cannot fucking wait until I graduate. No real job is going to pay like this, though. I’m making as much per hour as some people with their fancy graduate degrees make. Ha, I should tell my uncle that the next time he brags about my cousin getting into Yale. Or Princeton. Wherever she’s going. This is one of the least sexy things I’ve ever done. Including that time I puked in my hair before having that one-night stand. At least that guy was hot. This guy was just… Well. Not up to standard, that’s for sure. I like ‘em masculine. Bear Grylls, yum! What the hell was up with all those little curlicues this guy called chest hair? At least he had trimmed his pubes for me. So thoughtful…

And so, I collected my things and went home, $100 richer.

The job may not be glamorous, but it pays.

*NOTE* There is something wrong with this post. The people I’ve had review this all agree – there’s something missing. Probably emotion. But that’s because my first call wasn’t an emotional one for me. I have clients that I adore hanging out with, and I have clients that I detest. The first one was neither; I was simply indifferent. I’ll get to the good stuff soon enough.